no fruit!

whats the use???? is one question i think i hate!!
it comes due to expection of a fruit for the efforts one puts!

"don't expect the fruit...just do, for its own sake" says krishna.

a gift frm god, but i aint seeing it

as u can see, iam not doing my posting job evry well... first excuse, i dont have the bhagavad gita book with me...i left it at my grandparents' house and dint go to bring it back...iam missin reading it for 2 weeks now.... hopefully...by today i will go to bring it back...!! :) lets see...

second excuse...job is making me so busy that iam not able to open this blog at all...but today...i made it a point to post somthing atleast to give an excuse for not posting...hehe...

so yeah... i have done few things in the past week....which absolutly dint satisfy me excepting one.

so, i had a couple dance programmes...small ones... one-- at an excutive meeting in our office...there were so many expatriates coming from the US and so we had a huge meeting at a 7 star hotel...and my team lead asked for a welcome dance... the piece came out so well that i was actually satisfied with my dance (which rarely happens!!) ..and i got a standing avation!! :) first time ever...! it was really a great experience!!

and then that very day i had the auditions for a dance competition at office... and the judges for that were supposed to javed and ravi behi from boogie woogie..so auditions were tough. i was in group and solo...

and our group did a joogal bhandhi of classical and western... dint get selected! :( can u beat that.... the best dancer in the western dance was in my group! and a very good dancer for classical...and then me and then another guy as well but unfortunately this guy dint turn up during the auditions...! that was our major drawback apart frm lack of cordination...all said...end result we weren't selected...a big stroke..!! but well i got selected fo solo...

i have no clue why i, in the first place got selected, bcuz, i really flopped the show during the competition...the one known for the too good songs flopped it... my song was bad for the audience...! it was tamil song (ofcuz the song fo which i became a big hit at my town) but not here...i should have guessed it. humiliation engulfed me...throwing furious glances at me and my dance...please not my dance i begged! but it striked many times...! after my dance i dint face anybody straight frm dressing room i ran home... how could i even face? even today (its been 2 days since the competition) i still face difficulty talkin abou it when ppl ask....wanna shout out loud... why my dance???? why???

gita paat -1

kurukshektra...the great battle field, which has seen the vishwa roopa darshnam of vishnu 3 times!!

dhridharastra raja was a blind person, he couldn't be present in the battle field, so he asks sanjay to narrate to him the course of the battle...sanjay narates the battle, when he also narrates bhagavad gita. hence gita is a dialogue between sri krishna and arjuna told by sanjay to dhridharashtra. this came as a surprise to me when i started gita, i was conceived gita to be a first hand dialogue when i read i realised it was a narration by sanjay.

so in the very first chapter, sanjay just discribes of how everybody is standing in the battle field, and where they are all placed. he mentiones everybody and also their relationshiops among them. i dont quite remember most of it, gimme a days time let me go through them and then come back to write...

well... so the ppl who are placed right in front of arjuna is the caue of his down fall....his own kith and kin!

here in the first chapter we will be refreshed with the relationshipd ppl share on the battle field and what is the situation evrybody is in. then by the end of the chapter the 'shunk' will be blown... to begin the fight... just then..arjuna stops...

just an another day...

this is one of the beautiful pics i have found on net... the moment you see it iam sure you will smile...! smile is contagious.
alright..well..today i woke up very very late...:(... well people who know me would just push it away exclaming as just another day, but ...well i came to office late... (k its just another day) but this day i had a call with a senior!!! oh...i had to lie to her that i had some personal urgency..!! boohoo...well...i came back and spoke to her ,....everything smooth and fine...but i lied....:( :(...... its terrible...that feeling... i have always been late for most of the things...but then i just smile to cover up...u knw...it does work....but now..can i smile??...she cant even see me!!! hehe... well... no point cribbing...i am sure i will come late yet another day as well...but then hopefully wont delay on calls... poor company...hehe ;)

colours

love an ever lasting love...this is one thing one cant give out of practice...once i used to believe that even love can come by getting used to it. n i did practice it... the artificial life engulfed this frame... so artificial that reality seemed senseless and mad...when artificiality softened the hand i thot it was the heart which was getting touched...the smile spread a mile...but cunt touch my ears...i thot it touched even my temple...wen salty water rolled down the cheeks i thot it was the soul which was dropping some of its contents... because sadness is one feeling which cant be acted... and now i realise...soul did pour out... but for a different reason...i was fallin...fallin far frm reality...fallin into artificiality...was just caught by reality then...it knocked off the ephemeral stage... turned to the bright light...redened my face...burnt my hands n feet...reality shook me off...drenched in my despair past... learnt new lessons... chose the true nature of nature...flowin it now... no more artificial colours would fill my painting...
let the maya play its role...and purush will play his role too...!

continuing ...gita paat..

Sri Krishna, begins gita when Arjuna surrendered himself in the feet of the lord. now we know how surrender-ism is such a powerful weapon to attain moksham. today i want to start with the general gist of the great conversation... i am planning to write every chapter in each post... hopefully i would be able to do it... prayers to the lord for this. so bhagavad geeta... askin man to follow the righteous path... the most difficult thing which i think is to be able to discriminate. Discriminating the good and the bad... defining them... as once posted before...where i said defining things is the most difficult thing to do... once you define a situation you will definitely master the situation...be able to see through the glass... be able to discriminate... when i speak of philosphy, the very common question thrown at my face is : "what is good and what is bad?" ... i have tried answering in many different ways to different people... but in vain..none is convinced... i am still searching for the true answer... well.... the best guide for this would be The Geeta... here the lord in the 17th chapter... tells us everything which is good and everything which is bad... He has not tried to define it...here, he has has mentioned which things are good ( sattvika guna) and which things are bad (tamasika guna). let me give simple examples now... sattvika guna..person having a lot traits of sattvika guna would generally be active, thinks a lot about almighty, stoic, dettached. the person having tamasika guna would have traits like laziness, inactive, enemity et al. the one guna in between these two is rajasika guna...which i feel is where most of us are..... because most of us have traits from both the sides... Krishna also says that a man has to develop from tamas to sattvikam. i am writing this on my way back to home... in the cab... he happens to see my typing and coincidently, he is also very spritiual. one can tell that by the very look on his face. he works on the same floor, one guy who has a hair knot like the pujaris at temple!
well...continue tomorrow with proper gist of the first chapter.

" karpanyo dhoshaha pahatha swabhava;
prichami thvam dhrama samuda chethaha;
yescheya stha nishchintha bruhi thanme shishyasthe shadhi mam thvam prapanam" --
Arjuna says, in the battle field at kurukshektra... surrending himself before the lord.
Arjuna was disconcerted when he faced his own kith n kin standing in front of him waging the war! he took a step back, when Sri krishna beheld him.
he then describes his fears in a very beautiful way, explaining each and every part of the body and how it acts in fear .... hands can't hold the bow, legs fail to stand, eyes fail to open, mouth trembles....and so on. i don't quite remember the exact quotes..lemme see and come back tomo to post it! its really a beautiful description of fear.
righteous is the step to be taken, and our emotions take a back seat. may wat may come in front of us...righteous path has to be choosen. are we doing this in our life??? question your mind often for the answer...! so..comin bac to kurukshektra, when arjuna was confused of what to do...to kill his own relatives and run away from the war...Krishna says...fight, fight for your Dharma! thats Bhagavat geeta!-- fight! Fight for dharma.
Arjuna then surrenders himself sayin the above verses... only then Sri Krishna starts the geeta paat.
will continue tomo...