making the day...

when you wake up in the morning...the first thing/person you remember makes your day???
or is it after you reach the place , you have to reach every working day, the first person/thing you see makes your day???
or is it the first sign u get when you start ur daily routine dat makes your day???
or is it that, generally, evenings make your day???
or is it that the thought before you go to sleep that makes your day or the next???
ohhhhh.... there are umpteen things that can make a day!!! countless.... but somthing has to make a day...
most of us, see or remember our loved ones as the first sight or thought...dats the usual... but there are others who see or remind themseleves of their loved ones before they go to sleep... so the sun rise wud be brighter....
whatever it is for....why r everybody doin this???? why a better day than sterday???? why this search for infinity???
lets name it.....the search for happiness!!!!..... eternal bliss....
not the ephemaral ones... but these searches lead to only temporary joy... not the eternal!! but yet the mind takes the crude route! there is a song written by thyagaraja, it goes lik this ... "why, oh, mind, why do you take the short n crude route when there is king's way right in front of you."
this is exactly what i am doing now! eternal bliss is waitin...yet....
and the play is god's !!!
and one conclusion through this...this mind was able to make... "i need to learn somthing more through somebody else, and i am learning it.... thank you my friend, this is god, that iam meeting, thinkin, talkin.... in order to meet myself... in order to personify myself as happiness...i have met you"

valentines special

"I want to hold your hands and walk a mile

dont want to miss u, even for a while.

my life is so beautiful coz

dear, its you...my life!

hug me for my worries to die

my tears to dry and

my lonliness to fly.

it hurts me to know

how i sometimes can be selfish

when it comes to you.

i am getting sentimental over you!

for god sake explain me why all these

i miss you every moment of the day.

i keep me awake just to listen to you,

i keep me empty just for you to fill,

i keep me alive just to see you.

my mornings miss you

my evenings seeks you

where were you all these years

fear of future is worse than pain of past

still i bother the least, coz u are there

even seconds are too long to miss you

i want to hold your hands and walk a mile

dont want to miss you, even for a while...

come fill my life!

no fruit!

whats the use???? is one question i think i hate!!
it comes due to expection of a fruit for the efforts one puts!

"don't expect the fruit...just do, for its own sake" says krishna.

a gift frm god, but i aint seeing it

as u can see, iam not doing my posting job evry well... first excuse, i dont have the bhagavad gita book with me...i left it at my grandparents' house and dint go to bring it back...iam missin reading it for 2 weeks now.... hopefully...by today i will go to bring it back...!! :) lets see...

second excuse...job is making me so busy that iam not able to open this blog at all...but today...i made it a point to post somthing atleast to give an excuse for not posting...hehe...

so yeah... i have done few things in the past week....which absolutly dint satisfy me excepting one.

so, i had a couple dance programmes...small ones... one-- at an excutive meeting in our office...there were so many expatriates coming from the US and so we had a huge meeting at a 7 star hotel...and my team lead asked for a welcome dance... the piece came out so well that i was actually satisfied with my dance (which rarely happens!!) ..and i got a standing avation!! :) first time ever...! it was really a great experience!!

and then that very day i had the auditions for a dance competition at office... and the judges for that were supposed to javed and ravi behi from boogie woogie..so auditions were tough. i was in group and solo...

and our group did a joogal bhandhi of classical and western... dint get selected! :( can u beat that.... the best dancer in the western dance was in my group! and a very good dancer for classical...and then me and then another guy as well but unfortunately this guy dint turn up during the auditions...! that was our major drawback apart frm lack of cordination...all said...end result we weren't selected...a big stroke..!! but well i got selected fo solo...

i have no clue why i, in the first place got selected, bcuz, i really flopped the show during the competition...the one known for the too good songs flopped it... my song was bad for the audience...! it was tamil song (ofcuz the song fo which i became a big hit at my town) but not here...i should have guessed it. humiliation engulfed me...throwing furious glances at me and my dance...please not my dance i begged! but it striked many times...! after my dance i dint face anybody straight frm dressing room i ran home... how could i even face? even today (its been 2 days since the competition) i still face difficulty talkin abou it when ppl ask....wanna shout out loud... why my dance???? why???

gita paat -1

kurukshektra...the great battle field, which has seen the vishwa roopa darshnam of vishnu 3 times!!

dhridharastra raja was a blind person, he couldn't be present in the battle field, so he asks sanjay to narrate to him the course of the battle...sanjay narates the battle, when he also narrates bhagavad gita. hence gita is a dialogue between sri krishna and arjuna told by sanjay to dhridharashtra. this came as a surprise to me when i started gita, i was conceived gita to be a first hand dialogue when i read i realised it was a narration by sanjay.

so in the very first chapter, sanjay just discribes of how everybody is standing in the battle field, and where they are all placed. he mentiones everybody and also their relationshiops among them. i dont quite remember most of it, gimme a days time let me go through them and then come back to write...

well... so the ppl who are placed right in front of arjuna is the caue of his down fall....his own kith and kin!

here in the first chapter we will be refreshed with the relationshipd ppl share on the battle field and what is the situation evrybody is in. then by the end of the chapter the 'shunk' will be blown... to begin the fight... just then..arjuna stops...