Vaikunta Ekadasi !!! today being the day for Moksha....i ask the almighty to grace me the ultimate bliss....the Moksha...Swamy...i beg you for this...! its you iam living for....dont leave me...this soul cant move without you...
i can see you puttin me in test...and i have failed...fallen... but please dont leave me...help me get up n raise to come you...

Definition

defining..... this is most toughest thing to do on the face of the earth!!! who wud not accept to me?
and the most toughest thing to define is.....any guesses.... happiness!!! thats wat i think is the most difficult expression to define. try now...try defining this..... with whatever you come up with u r still not yet satisfied! how beautiful...! :)
happiness is boundless...lets take its opposite....sadness!!! can u define it....yes ofcuz...very well indeed, cant we? so thats that...happiness, ....an eternal state ....a blissful state....in eternal bliss.... ! so now...this comes to reason out why most of us sad most times.....cuz we r able to identify and define the reason n exactly find out why.....but happiness exceeds us....!
so... keep smiling...its a mystery.....! manage smilin wen ur tears fight them....! but let the smile win cuz thats a mysterry...!
keep smiling my good old being....!

aint it sweet...the hope

i dont like silence much...i feel they eat up alive...but they say "silence is golden"! that is so true and silence can win the world....but wat if the silence has come as consequence to a confusion.....the mind says "dont" abd heart says "ofcuz yes"...its like your left hand moves right and right hand moves left...ur left leg takes a back step and right a front step...whr do u go? how do you go? stranded....stranglin...smudged...strugglin...squeezin...all over..

but yet...thr u find a small tiny odd shaped 'hope'...very small dat it escapes ur blured eyes...but dat hope has to be found..."hold on..dont shake..thr is hope holdin on to u...its light...it might fall...hold on"...that odd shaped thing finally brings u back to shape...and what ine between you n hope....its after all "time and patience!"

krishna...

its poignant at times when u see urself strangling with time...sombody said "time is a healer..time moves on...time doesnt wait fo anyone..." ... and iam here waitin... ... ...
Diabolic thoughts...!!
What have i lost...!!
So much in store to gain
But i aint going for that
Oh...the pain...
I am just brooding on this.
Am I a coward?
Am i afraid to face?
Am i giving it up?
I am confused...
But entrenched not to lose
Its in my hands...
I lose it, I lose it!
I win it, I win it!
Oh....what triumph it is
To win when you thought you lost
To reach the zeneath
And give my love the credit
What pleasure it gives to give...
A thousand symphony cant give that peace.

abstract....!!! i knw it is... i like writing it that way.... u knw its said...poems r best when not understood...!! hehehe... in the future i ll post some more of these...

My game..! ;)

i havnt been online for a long time now...somtimes...u never know that u can also get bz like every other person..!! so, i went to assist a training in the office, it was a training for the new hires...i should say it was very enjoyable...3 full days of complete fun...ofcuz learnin in between(how can i forget that...;))
and den...had a match!!! u knw which game....'my' game! n guess what... im d runners up...!! i was amazed at myself...takin a racket after 3 n half yrs..and playin a satisfyin game!... the whole of the weekend was exhilarating. somtimes when we get things as the way we wanted...heart becomes clairvoyant...empty with carelessness...smiles wide the outter organ of the heart...(here i mean the mouth, eyes...cuz these r the only two organs which expresses heart very well)...
and at times when things dont come the we expect...heart becomes heavy...full with utmost care...droplets around the eyes...(or shud i say outter heart?)...mouth starts to stop its function...
"the problem with problems are most of it doesnt exist"... how true...! think abou it next time when u r sad...!
and when u r overjoyed...think abou how you too faced problems (which never existed!)like every other person on the face of the earth!
STOIC....!!! aint we shud be??? how difficult to practice??

laugh aloud...

Sterday was beautiful... played my most favourite game....badminton... i wonder y its startin wid the word "bad".... but hmmm...bad has good in it....cuz it makes us realise the good!!! ... well yeah....comin bac to track.... played that game of mine (lemme call it so ...it pleases me..) ..for nearly couple of hours...! 2 matchs...lost both of it...but in the end the losin only made me smile wide!!! well lost only by 2 to 3 points....so doesnt matter much technically as well...! nostalgic it was... my good old days flashin bac n forth... the times we used to fight to crab the court to play a single match..the times when thr wre tournaments...division, inter division n then the state...oh boy...tension creeps...eats u up like those bugs...u wre a total high-fi short skrit n t-shirt wid ur name n school name inscribed...n a tip top shoes...!! ur opponent... in a long green school skirt...a white (alright...a brownish white) shirt... a black ribbon tied high....n what do they score.... a 15-0... !!!!!! appearances r deceptive!!!
its a beautiful game..! hmmm...i miss it...!

thot process...

somtimes...u dunno wat u shud be doin.... u r totally unaware of time...yet... time moves lik a snail...!
thots entangle you...like the ferns... u r caught....yet lazy to push it away...oh wat a distortion the minds gets into...thot process seizes... body convulses...oh...
wat a poignant thot...!!! --- this is what happens when you are really bored and jobless!!! so ppl awaken ....

beautiful mind...

"God writes a lot of comedy... the trouble is, he's stuck with so many bad actors who don't know how to play funny."

how true!!!
smile an ever lastin smile....
awaken your conscience conciously comical, curious enough to awaken others as well....!